Monday, August 31, 2009
{ 10:26 PM }
Monday ~
Teachers day performance was -.-" . the only best thing was the girl singing The Climb. i swear. however , i enjoyed the show by shouting my lungs out with Atika , Fandi , Raymond , Adiy and Apul. Heck care lah. wednesday is going to be the start of our prilims. so why not let out our pressure now right ? heh. its totally the right moment to actually shout with no police to come and dragged you to jail. heh. So after the performance - head back home with firdi - go to the library with her after freshen up - study social studies - break fasting - back home . i studied geography at about 10pm nish. and damn , i cant understand development. sheesh. someone help me pretty please. im so good at chapter of food that im bad at development. too bad i have to study both since prilim is a combine chapter.
this is random , but i miss some people in the past. seniors ex evgians. : KakNadia, KakYana, KakNana, Apan.
Juniors evgians : Filliyana Gundu and the miscall.
my friends ex evgians : Zulhilmi and Syafiqah.
i miss apan. my brother's friend. the cutest one. pinching my cheeks asking me not to go back home late. the person that approached me when ever im alone and in a very random way. love to make random jokes. out of the ordinary. my cute lil spiderman. he wore a spiderman mask to school to make me laugh with his biggest crime partner, Dan.
Yana Gundu. i accidentally found the pictures of me and Yana Gundu. We went out for a day out. ate pizza hut. three round around the magical fountain. snap pictures here and there. Night phonecalls till early mornings. making her scared with horrow jokes after midnights. singing in the phone. shouting each other nicknames ( Gundu & pop ). this is so random.
The miscall. I miss those times with you guys. jamming till latenights. popping $4 each for a few hours jamm. meeting up at yishun macdonalds for luch. Laughing at anything we're talking about. having cigss whenever the song dont work out well . slacking after each practise. snap snap here and there. this is also random.
Zulhilmi. having him to be there for me whenever i need someone to talk to. shared a notebook for personal conversations. movie day out. neoprints. a timezone partner. he can really entertain my craps. because i crap non stop.
Syafiqah. having to know that a friend is a phonecall away. someone that could make me laugh through out the whole day. someone who calls for no reasons. the best listening ear. the best laughing gas. the best friend i ever had.
i miss them.
Saturday, August 29, 2009
{ 9:26 AM }
everything i do, i gave my heart and soul. i give all my consern , trust and love. i wont expect anything in return. ill be the best of my best. ive promised you ill explain you the song. so i will. here goes. i change it in english for better understanding. let me just explain just a few parts of it aye ?
i can never will replace you with that person.
i can never will choose another.
i can never will love another , just to forget you.
i will never want to move away from having the position in your heart.
i cant do this by myself.music player ~ is playing the songs that i have been listening repeatedly.
do listen.Labels: untukmu selamanya.
{ 8:58 AM }
Friday ~
ended up suspended with four crazy girls. after school headed back home straight. tried having a lil nap , however something came up and brings my mood way way down to the very bottom end. sheeeesh. and then at about 6nish , fetch atika down at northplaza. she came to my house for maths private lesson and at the same time breaf-fasting together with my family. i sent her down to the bus stop at 10nish. cancel the plan to go home straight, so we headed to somewhere nearby for a lil chit chats. however, i received a text from someone and so i headed back home after sending atika to the bus stop once again.
Saturday ~
woke up early in the morning due to repeated vibrations. i am suppose to go to maths remedial. lol. had a splendid wonderful morning spent together with you. and after that , i headed back home at about 12nish and freshen myself up. meet atika at boots and shoes at 2.30pm. and im finally punctual ! omygoodness. heh. then we went to the library. oh my, it was superduper packed. im serious. its damn hard to find a spot. so after a few rotations around the library , we finally found two black chairs and a cute lil small spot to squeeze ourselves. there goes, we studied social studies for upcoming prilims.
1) Bonding of singapore.
2) Venice.
3) Globalisation / Healthcare ( back ups ).
geography lesson was awesome. having mrs harris as my new geo teacher was double the awesome. she actually called me sexy just because i greeted her in a very kid way while others greeted her in a very sleepy way. lol. she is willing to give me private lessons because since now she knew that i have four subjects left. sheeeesh. and oh, english olevel oral went pretty well enough , about cultures (;
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
{ 6:04 AM }
i really need someone to pull me to a place , whereby there will be peace ! pretty pleaseeee ! my mood is not behaving as how i wanted it to be . Small things could simply make my mood destroy in just a finger snap . Noise , is the last thing i want to hear for now. yes , sometimes i stuck on my green earpiece in both my ears with a super duper loud volume. staring at all my surroundings. looking at the people that never seems to shut their mouth up. i imagine being alone at that particular place. and yes , damn shit its hell peace. Ive never understand how i really am feeling. I dont even know what is really bothering my mind. i guess , i just need to chill.
how i wish , everyone could just shut up and listen to me.
suprisingly . i have nothing to say.Labels: a time to chill.
Sunday, August 23, 2009
{ 3:18 AM }
Things could change.
small things
like wearing a watch on LEFT today and wear it on the RIGHT the next day.
i dont know ? small things could make me feel so down ya know ?
you : " eh dont wear your wrist band on your left lah ! "
me: " why ? "
you : " because left is for watches and right is for wrist bands. "
me : " okay , i'll change it"
A few weeks later ..
me : " eh why you wear your watch on your right ? "
you " entah ? cool ? "
me : " erm okayy "
okay random ! heh.
the wristband reminds me of you.
Labels: small things.
{ 2:55 AM }
what ever decision you made, you gotta ready to accept the consequences.
i believe in this.
when you lose certain things or a person, you'll get something back in return.
a replacement.
so even when youve lost some of your group of friends,
never to feel lonely because your old friends are still here for you.
yes , eventhough i felt like youve dump me once before.
and although your group of friends could not accept the way you are right now,
ill still accept you for who you are.
dont worry.
cheer up alright ?
i cant promise you ill go on the 6th of september with you guys.
gee , sorry.
self training @ wdls stadium.
currently blogging.
i had a deep convo yesterday night.
till 4nish am.
i get to know things that is beyond my expectations.
and after knowing it , it somehow increases.
im being honest here.
and let me just tell you , i hope you will not take any advantage of that.
Saturday, August 22, 2009
{ 7:53 AM }
your actions just make me realised.
the times when you wipe my face with your yellow towel.
the times when you got scared because you had a bad dream.
the times when i felt that you needed me more then just anything.
the times when im just your everything.
i assume things that was never true.
i thought i was no one to you.
things will get better.
truly.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
{ 6:41 AM }
Words could not explain how scared i am as i walked towards the spectrum room.
my heart was beating real fast.
I cant help it and so i hold alysa's hand.
my feelings was a mixture.
i was pretty excited but at the same time i was hell scared.
especially the minute when i know only 1 person achieved A1 and 4 students A2.
i waited , until Mal called up my name.
Damn shit.
Looked at the results.
alhamdulillah.
to all my friends , i know you guys can do better.
There is a second chance. Grab it if you think you should.
please make a wise decision.
to the ones satisfied , congratulations.
now strive harder for other subjects (;
in two hours time , happy birthday (;
i have to study geo & chem.
since tmmrw is the mock exam.
i swear im gonnal punnish myself if i fail the Geo mock exam.
sheessssh !
Labels: thank you god.
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
{ 6:31 AM }
Firstly , im pissed with the blogger. because yes , its a disaster. i cant even post a picture ); Forget it , well hope it gets better soon. H1N1. Ciaaaaaaan ;D so basically , tuesdays was pretty awesome. because i had a long free period whereby i could have my self study. I had my self study after school. Geography , since i will be sitting for the Mock Exam this thursday. And today , in history , my maths teacher actually cried. heh. not suppose to be funny though. however , she's just pissed with us. ah come on , maths has been my greatest rival since i am primary. When ill pass ? only during major exams when i took it like damn seriously. but oh my , she actually cried can ? Darn i felt so guilty. ill work hard aye ?
heh. oh and tommorow is the Mt olevel results. like finally i guess ? lets just hope for a B4 can ? i dont want to put any high hopes , because i dont want to end up feeling dissapointed of myself. If i got the grades which i trully aimed for , i will left 4 subjects to pressure on. Oh god , please lighten my task. it all depends on tommorow's result. Lets just wish for the best. i wish to have the best result for mama. i have told her this before " ma , my Mt olevel result will be for your birthday." Oh my, lets not end up crying tommorow. fighting with her is not a good thing. and this happens only once a lifetime. i have never fight with mama until yesterday. Sorry ); I need a place , whereby i could just have peace and not think of anything so heavy. I want someone that could just be there with me and find the air to breathe. a place to just rest my head. can i find it ?
lets just call it two years. i wish i am the first and the last you owned.
Labels: it all depends.
Sunday, August 16, 2009
{ 8:04 AM }
Saturday~
We both headed up to geylang for the opening lights ceremony.
everything was alright.
we two short peepole tried tip toe-ing in the centre of the crowds.
gave up & ended up viewing the screen instead of the stage.
he is one of a hotstuff caaan ?
sheeesh , im gonna plead mama to buy me a blue this year raya ! ;P
heh. so basically had a great time talking with this babe of mine.
we saw this group of MR's ( minah repss ).
it doesnt worked seriously.
instead of looking like a big gangster , they ended up looking like a big jerks.
thanks to atika , we ended up being lost in the mrt and ended up at JOO KOON.
I ended up reaching home at 1nish am !
lucky no big scolding from mama cos i went back home with brother ^^
Sunday~
Atika & i planned to go to the library at 5pm but ended up going at 6nish.
we spotted Nad studying all by herself at a table.
therefore , we asked her to joined us along after ive found a table of four.
we talked about how N levels and Olevels are.
and it turned out to be a big pressure to all.
yes , N level is hard. its a tough call, really.
So nad , work your ass off alright ?
oh and about testing you physics , dont mention it.
ill do what it takes to help(;
nad is a cute person who brought a bread of nutella to the library in case of emergency.
lol.
I studied geo , since there will be a mock exam next week.
and anyway , goodluck to all the Nlevel students.
And goodluck for the Olevel student for the upcoming Mt olevel results ^^
look out for my reaction when i get my results.
if i were to cover my face , means im satisfied.
if i were to laugh , means im not satisfied.
^^ Labels: NA.
Saturday, August 15, 2009
{ 4:22 AM }
Woke up at 1nish pm. head up to grands house as per normal. i reached geylang at about 4nish. and this wonderful thing happen. I was walking and i saw this girl wearing the exact same top im wearing from mango -.-". darn shit. I tried escaping by walking behind her. However , it fails. because she turned and saw me ! omg , she saw me laughing & she actually shouted " Omgoodness " and laughed along with me. Wth. this is the second time i saw someone wearing the exact top with me. heh. today im going with atika to geylang serai for the opening lights ceremony at 8nish. and im currently waiting for atika. she's late can ?
Rezky Aditya will be coming ! oh my hotstuff(;
I am so bored right now. currently web cam-ing with sabrina now ;P
lucky she's here to entertain me.
i havent start my self study .
except that i kept reading this book.
" 9 steps to success , teens can make it happen "
that book just help me build up my self esteem.
whenever you encounter a problem , respond this to youself " never give up ".
and oh , i did my social studies source base question anyhow.
the question goes like this " what do you think the source is saying ? "
my answer " oh i dont know what the source is saying.
they are saying things that i dont understand. and i dont think i know what this source is trying to say."
omg , im asking for a big tight slap from mr allawden can ? heh.
im going now. taaaaaaa(;
Thursday, August 13, 2009
{ 9:07 AM }
what can i say about school this week eh ? i either suffer total boredom or total madness. The situation was all messed up. Most students left for Dnt & Art workshop leaving 14 students left in 5 thinking. pathetic. i expected the lessons to be carried out as per normal. However , my social studies teacher proved me wrong. He came to class and directly had his own convo with another subject teacher. suprisingly till the bell rangs, period ends. wah seh. Good lesson. However , thanks to dowa , i had some geo self study with her. Thank god. I had other subjects during the day. I didnt expect other teachers to be such an irresponsible teacher , excluding mrs harris. The teachers didnt even step in the class can ? wah piangg. i escaped physics & maths class because i knew it'll end up the same way. And so i head up to the library with the others. I am sick & tired of the situation and now i plan not to go to school tommorow because tmmrw will just be another terrible boring day.
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I went to Kk hospital right after chemistry remedial.
because syafikah and atikah had ended up hospitalised.
I hope they'll get better.
had a great time with Sars , Atikah & firdi (;
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dowa , yes probably ive gotten the wrong idea about your sentences.
i hope our friendship could remain(;
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a cool voice every after midnight.
i cant deny it that we're getting better & better.
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im in no mood.
Labels: everything.
Saturday, August 8, 2009
{ 6:26 AM }
I recalled back every moments , every thing that had happen in the past.
I somehow find it funny ?
You and you used to be mine.
however , we drifted apart & i think that was the right move.
because i have now realised how easily people could change(;
nothing last forever.
it could, if you were to start appreciate whats right infront of you.
I used to be a dumbass shit that could do anything to be the best for you.
but now , i no longer care or even bother.
I will and i can be there in times in need , but i can never be a fool once again.
~
being taken advantage of is the worse thing that has ever happen to me.
the fact that it keeps repeating , is freaking me out.
i tried to be the best for you, however you tested my patience too much.
its just over the line.
i dont hate you , i dont have any issues with you.
lead a good life aye ?(;
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you came to my life & light up every darkness in the room.
thank god i met you , because im now a happier person.
greatest ownage, thank you for everything.
~
i'll be the best to who ever treats me best.
i dont choose.
and its not like i choose to act strangers infront of you.
the way you treated me just asking for it
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Thursday, August 6, 2009
{ 6:46 AM }
many assignments & test to be completed.
Sunday, August 2, 2009
{ 8:00 AM }
December
Loyal and generous. Sexy (LOL!). Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egoistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.
~
i did this quiz at facebook about december(;
let me highlight the ones i totally agreed on.
the other ones , it depends on people's opinion.
i dont need to praise myself.
tak perlu ehhh ;D
Labels: december babies.
{ 7:34 AM }
Saturday ~
i went to haig road as pernormal to grands. i was crossing the road with mama.
suddenly, got super duper alot of people walking towards my direction. almost everyone was pushing me. Omg , i know very well that im short. I had this convo with mama after i get so pissed with people pushing me around.
Me : " ma why is thr so many ppl pushing me around? "
Mama : " because its saturday "
Me : " HUH ?! whats the link ?! "
Mama : " saturday , so got many people."
Me : " huh ? i dont find it a link."
Mama : " saturday = many people = push around "
Me : " huh ? kayyyyyyy "
i still dont get it somehow.
lol.
i stayed at home for the whole of sunday because im sick.
i dont have the feeling of stepping out of house.
i took two panadols and went back to sleep again.
heh.
homework still untouched ;D
omg dont remind me tommorow got Dc pleaseeeee !
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i trust your words , but action speaks louder than words.
i dont need to ask you anymore.
i dont think its worth it.
for now , i will just sit down , silence.
and wait (;
Labels: to be continued.
Saturday, August 1, 2009
{ 3:57 AM }
Last sunday.
hEEEEEEE ;D
As per normal , days are pretty much the same.
assignments all untouched.
heading to the library tommorow perhaps.
i dont feel like topping up this weekend.
probably monday(;
thr is nothing much i should say.
i could not say anything as soon as i met you that day.
because i know, its useless.
i guess all i have to do is heal it myself.
it takes time for me to recover.
i shut my mouth up and waited.
because you know that im all filled with (-) mindsets.
im done.
Labels: to be continued.
