yes, very busy with studies this few days.
infact it will be through out the whole of this month and next month.
in school from 7.20 to 5nish.
head back home, freshen up, went back school at 7nish for night study.
this are all for O;mygoodness.
alot of assignments to be completed. i only had 4 to 5 hours of sleep every day.
and yes, im tired like shit ass.
i can pretend like i am all full of energy , but on the inside , i am really in need of a hug.
tsk.
someone told me , suffer now , and you'll enjoy after all.
yes, i will. thank you.
Keep it warm.
Because he is sick );
Selamat hari raya to everyone ! ;D
well the first day of raya , its suppose to be white + turqoise ,
however i wasnt wearing my scarf for that moment of time.
so there goes my hair , snap snap snap.
credits to tyra for the encouraging words during the cycle 12.
she went like " it doesnt matter if your hair is short or long , the true beauty lies in you"
credits to Nyra , for make up;s and hair style.
ok done for now. more pictures in facebook ;D
ok girls, smile to the camera ! ok thats no Flute eh shak.
The heights are in a random arrangement eh please.
And finally , its time to play with fires ;P
I need to tell you all that this is not our first time.
Oh yes , i have my own ! ;D
and i wonder why they went so hyper ! -.-"
fine then , ill go hyper myself.
so we headed back home at around 10nish.
shak was late , so i planned to just take the cab.
we struggled like ass to find a taxi.
atika and i went drunk.
not as in literally drunk , but out of control.
so we shouted everywhere across the street.
shouted for taxi, shouted because we're tired, shouted because we want to go home.
we had caused a sleeping uncle to woke up.
we had stole someone's taxi by cutting the line.
we had fainted in the taxi.
i went out of the taxi and vomited repeatedly.
went home and sleep.
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i could not sleep yesterday.
and so i took out all my physics notes and assesment books.
studied only two chapters );
Sound and kinematics, tsk.
im slowwww. cant make it one. hah.
however , i did tried studying most of the topics.
hopefully by today.
however, ill not be at home today ! so how ?
lol.
i helped mama to clean up the windows. total 5 ?
and i am so tired please.
i am mummy;s good lil girl ! ^^
alright , i gtg now. need to get ready.
meeting shak / akiah / atika .
ANONY/ANNOY , THANKS ALOT.
appreciate it though.
i hope youll know your own name one day.
chill out with him.
we were sitting down the block, an talked like there is no tmmrw.
suddenly this makcik and pakcik walked passed.
me and azri looked down and sit down in a very appropriate way,
hands on the lap.
the pakcik went like " pengantin baru tu ! "
they went off , and we burst out into laughter. heh.
and oh , my motive is just to wish someone.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NURUL SYAFIKAH BINTE ZAINI ! (;
HAVE AN AWESOME DAY AYE ?
AND GOODLUCK FOR O'S ! ;D
purplesugar.
p.s : dengar dengar katak boleh lompat ? ;P
Labels: boy, my jacket ?
i laughed and smiled whenever i looked at this picture.
people please agree with me !
i just hope my life would be as easy as babies.
and yes , babies and small kids never fail to make me smile.
and you , budak kecik.
what a snap -.-"
yes , sometimes i feel like running from all the things that is bringing me down. however now, i guess i should just face the situation and solve it before thing gets any worse.
Geography paper had already ended yesterday ?
and yes , i did not sleep the whole night the day before to actually memorised whatever i can. and after that went for a bath and straight to school. i swear my eyes was all heavy.
maths papers are like finally over just now ? should i actually be happy for that ?
because ive been wishing for it to really end. but i know i shall not be happy, because at the same time i knew i did it badly. i was just having fun copying the questions in the foolscap.
i know i need to do harder for my maths. its time to really do it man. if i dont, then dream on about going to University eh. tsk.
Next paper will be on next wednesday , and its physics please(; suprising but not , i am more excited in doing my physics rather then maths. yeah ofcorse.
and after the paper just now , i was walking swinging my bag , talking to tasha about my blog song , while suddenly , i accidentally hit her with my bag. ooops ?! lol.
accidentally laaah.
so i accompanied mummy to geylang . basically just to find our baju kurung ? and without wasting any time , mum just grabbed this white baju kurung for me. and i was too lazy to actually walk around geylang anymore , so i just agreed on that.
however , the sales woman make me feel so good when i was trying on it.
" oh sayang , you look very beautiful my dear "
yes , probably sales assistant would use sweet praises to actually attract customers.
but i know she's sincere on that one. lol.
alright , basically i am not that eager to celebrate Hari Raya this year.
but i am just looking forward to welcome this beloved person of mine that i have been waiting for him for 5 years. And in order to welcome him , my family have actually decided to do an open house on the second day of Rayer. I was very happy lah please.
i think i am going to run towards him and hug him can ? i felt like giving him a kiss on his cheek. its been five damn years without his touch. and i miss him. really.
and i love him like superr , just that he did a terrible mistake.
say goodbye to your second home uncle , the prison.
Labels: geek sisters.
i went to 883 to actually buy a coke to chill myself.
however , met azri and so we talked for a lil while.
he told me " why are you so quiet today ? "
i answered him " why can people really know when im feeling down ? "
he replied " because if youre not , you'll talk non stop "
i looked down , trying to avoid his previous question.
went back home , tried to chill myself , however failed.
so i went online .
cant help it but wish that you would call me at midnight.
but my phone did not vibrate.
i felt that im living the world all by myself.
however thanks to maya .
for making me feel as though im not the only one feeling that way.
she's one of a hell good listener. responds very well indeed.
sayang kamu lah ! ^^
mayaAzr is a very strong person.
i salute you, really.
- ditched by people group -
she created that group name and i somehow smiled reading it.
i just realised that , taking things easily is not a good thing.
but at the same time , taking things too seriously will harm yourself.
i tried to be a good person , however some people prove to me that i failed.
shall i try better ?
Labels: all i wanted was to be love.
trust me , im yours.
losing you is like living in a world with no air.
im here alone didnt want to leave.
if there is a way that i could make you understand.
how could you expect me to live the world with just me ?
cause my world revolves around you.
i sat alone , at the normal spot.
thinking what is going to happen next.
tears roll down , im out of tissues.
i need someone to hug me , because the winds blows strongly.
where were you when i needed you the most ?
tell me how youre gonna live without me.
are you going to be fine ? because i wont.
what hurts the most , was being so close , and having so much to say,
and watching you walk away.
i've seen that loving you is all i was trying to do.
its hard to deal with the pain that after what all ive given , you thought it was all a lie.
infact you thought it was all just a game.
i was wishing you were there , and tell me that you love me too.
because im a lil bit insecure.
from all of this mistreatments , but im working it out.
its so hard for you to actually understand that.
proving you that i really meant my words , is so haard.
its not easy.
cause i have been afraid that you would walk away.
i dont wanna end up with a broken heart , i dont want to play that part.
if i begged down on my knees , or if i cried ,
will it change and give me some light ?
i need you to come near me and make me feel as though youre mine.
i tried to reach you , i can almost feel you , and youre near.
but suddenly you dissapear.
you said you care , you said youll share ,
is it because we spend so much time , that its hurting me to let you go.
and i really wont and ill hold on tight.
are you losing grip ? whats happening ?
ill be begging you to trust me for now.
ill be wishing that youll still shower me with love and consern.
ill still hope nothing fades away.
i have you as my tattoo , ill have it forever.
i need you until my last breath , because youre my air.
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@ geylang.
so basically , ive been in a very pressure mood this days.
not as how happy i seems to be in the picture. lol.
the past few days , ive been surrounded with social studies essays.
memorised them and finnaly write it all down in two piece of paper during the exam.
so the good thing is social studies exam is over.
and here comes my geography paper next thursday ? tsk.
again, i have to memorise the notes by hard.
and the worse is , i still cant find anyone who could guide me with topic of development.
sheeeesh.
this will be the first time i ever did development during exams. terrible.
i really hope during olevels, it wont be a combine topic.
and oh , this is so random.
i am so gonna get my car license next year !
the feeling of travelling from woodlands to payar lebar for every weekends ,
is killing me ah please.
especially when it comes to going home time.
its already late at night and i have to travel by mrt, alone ! tsk.
therefore , ive made up my mind to really save up my own cash and get my license
NEXT YEAR ! ;D
yeah , since my friends said that i could get it when im 18 ?
so lets just try my luck (;
28 december 2010 .
and i have a dream last night ?
i did not sleep at all until the clocks ticks to 7nish am.
i had three dreams mixed.
firstly , i dream about myself going out of country , new york.
its just far away from home , and i achieved my freedom.
i went there by car , yes by car.
several pit stops , viewing the scenery here and there.
and when i reached to my destination hotel , get my room , and jumped to the hotel bed.
bla bla bla , shopping here there.
second dream , suprisingly i was a robbery ?
oh my goodness. lol.
i went in some rich people's house but somehow i did not stole anything.
i was just trapped in the house as the rich people suddenly came back home.
third dream , i was walking late at night.
it was after the olevels & so i just came back from work.
it was really late , some how there was a group of gang fighting .
i walked passed , i looked at them.
somehow some of them are not satisfied with the way i looked at them.
and they took out a knife and just stabbed me in my poor lil tummy.
and i was shocked that i fell out of bed.
drop down , and my ass was hurt.
kids shouting outside at the living room , and the clocks showed 3.45pm.
oh my my , what a sleep ! ;P
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