I followed Grands to east coast park to Chill.
I talked to two of my cousins.
Our conversations are more about Life of a teenager.
And Yes , I feel the conversation.
I feel as though ive been going through the situations mentioned ,
ever since i became a Teenager.
Situations whereby you will finally owned someone or Lose someone.
A situation whereby your patience will be tested to the very extent.
A situation whereby you feel as though people are looking down on you.
A situation whereby you feel as though no one is by your side.
A situation whereby people think differently about you.
And slowly , after each journey , i began to finally understand the meaning of life.
Accepting it is a lil bit too hard , but i will.
I have accepted the fact that nothing last forever ,
unless probably if you manage it w all your heart.
I have accepted the fact that i will be facing challenges that will be testing my patience.
I have accepted the fact that i will fail and will be looked down.
I have accepted the fact that sometimes there wont be anyone but me and God.
but today , i have just learned something that would benefit myself.

if someone were to think of you differently , you should not think its the end.
the end of the world or something.
you should be confident of yourself, because you know yourself better than anyone else.
you cant stop what they want to say , because its their mouth.
Every human being has their rights of their own life.
We as human being , should be accepting others regardless of how they are.
We are all the same , created by Allah.
We choose who we wanna be , because we will be facing death all by ourself.
Hating someone is a sin , accepting someone is a good thing.
because in this world , you can never find someone perfect.

Trust is another consern.
If that is the person you really love , trust them with all your heart.
Love between friends, families or just anyone.
if you think what they are doing is wrong , you can advise that person.
but not to the extent of accusing them and force them to own up smth they didnt do.

My cousin is in deep shit , and those are part of our conversations.
Meaningful Much.
She cried , and felt fucked up.
People who accused of smth that is totally not true , is so not cool.
And forcing someone to Own up when they did not even do it , is very not cool.
That Mat needs a Tight Tight slap (:
Thanks to my cousins for the deep convo's.
Which now i learned to just be myself and be confident.
Not trying to be someone elses which is so not you ?
and wishing that people would just stop talking about you ?
Nahhh , pointless.
People just dont know when to stop.
People who gets tired would probably will.
People who dont , then never will.

i told this to my cousin at the end , which she finally smiled.

Me : " diorang kate pape kau senyum jer lah , die gemok eh ? ke die tinggi sebab tu kau takot ? "
" kalau die gemok , kau tumbuk jer perut die macam punching bag. "
" eh tapi takmo ah , dose dohhh "

Cousin : " kau ni , pikir dulu lah baru bebual , aku baru rase cam nak tumbuk die tadi "
Me : " look , dont do wrong things, or youll just end up being just like them "
Cousin : " Good point. What am i suppose to do ? "
Me : " Smile & continue what youre dg if you think its nt wrong , kay ? "
Cousin : " Quite True , I will. "

I smacked her head and run away (:

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School was pretty much alright today ?
studied physics.
measurements of vernier callipers , using stopwatch , micrometer ,
and other more physics basics.
The teacher told me that he will be teaching physics for the next 3 to 4 months ,
and then he'll start on chemistry.
omg , is that really a good way ?
so either June or July then ill be studying chemistry ?
gosh , i guess i have to start now , ON MY OWN.
my partner asked the teacher this : " is buying a textbook , a Must ? "
the teacher answered :
" this is a private class ,
NOTHING is a must , you want you buy , you dowan to buy , we dont care "
then i was like giving that WTF face.
its okay its okay , we can work it out on our own then.
this private lessons aint helping me man.
i mean SCIENCE.
maths for now is pretty much stable.
although they are covering up matrices over and over again ,
due to some students who just started on matrices their FIRST EVER TIME.
so me and dowa have to endure and listen to it OVER AND OVER AGAIN.
yeah fine , this is what repeaters like me have to face isnt it ?
but however, the best part is that me and dowa would definitely get the answers Right.
erm except for the fact that we would have some careless mistakes here and there (;

so dowa have pure geo lessons today , without me !
ill be meeting her again on wednesday , and again story telling through out the journey.
and then buy either food or drinks.
and then had some Oxygen down the block , and headed off to class.
and will find the class boring.
and will be wishing for the teacher to let us go for a break for some oxygen again.
and when break time is over , will dragged ourself up to class.
and will find the class boring again.
and will be hoping for 9.45 so that we could all go home (;

NORMAL ROUTINES.