Sunday, May 30, 2010
{ 1:48 AM }
After reading Dowa's blog , i realised how much different it is
between Secondary school and private school.
Yes , honestly , im starting to realised too in why secondary schools have such rules.
like a big scoldings from the teacher when we dont do our homework.
while in private , they dont freaking care , or remember that they actually gave you one.
like receiving calls from teacher when you did not go to school.
while in private , they dont probably realised that 5 of their student went missing for 3 weeks.
taking O's in school is 5 times easier than taking O's in private.
in school , you have teachers , infact alot of teachers to actually be there ,
and they will be finding you just to make sure youre doing good.
while this freaking private school ,
they dont even bother.
because the moment i choose to take this route to actually retake my O's,
my mindset is suppose to be fixed.
and not to actually rely on anyone anymore to remind me that i have failed once.
but im no robot who doesnt need encouragements.
but i swear i dont need anyone to remind me that i will fail again,
because i know I WILL if my attitude towards private school were to be so low.
if i were to continue being so irresponsible towards myself.
if i were to take things so lightly.
Im too stubborn.
im not stupid in a way that i cant do anything right.
im stupid in a way that i dont even take any effort to.
June is so close right now ,
The month whereby most geeks would start their revisions close to 24/7.
Yes , like what Alysaeudora has mention in her blog ,
that whenever she thinks of maths , its big headache.
i totally agree.
me and her, have got to be honest that we have to actually start ,
from the very first topic of sec 3 to actually Master our Maths.
i have the plans set , yet not start.
someone has got to seriously be there for us.
but who ? /:
God , please send us one Maths Geek to show us the right way,
of doing maths ? ;P
nothing is impossible , dowa.
we've just got to believe in ourselves.
lets do it Nur Azura Binte Mohamad Sani.
and Alysaudora Rosanne Ali.
You can do it !!!
Labels: just do it.
Sunday, May 9, 2010
{ 9:51 AM }
I walked passed Fig And Olive the other day ,
I miss everything about it.
Being punctual during the Morning shift,
bought a mutton soup before work starts,
Doing those tables and chairs early mornings,
felt like a boss behind those cashier eating ice creams and shaking legs ,
Being a bar tender ,
Being a waitress , with a note pad and a pen on my hand.
Taking orders as polite as i can be (:
Choosing songs from mp3 to play out loud in the restaurant ,
To choose a meal in the Menu and Having free meals after work ,
free meals cooked by chef during break time ,
Having other co - workers to laugh and joke with ,
to run to the toilet to escape from entertaining crowds.
Standing still in a spot like an idiot waiting for customers,
going back and forth woodlands and vivo.
Sleeping in the bus due to long journey ,
stacking up the tables and chairs when its closed,
fucking customers which entered fig and olive when we're clossing ,
basically , i miss working in an Fnb Line (:
especially , getting tips like $20 all to myself from a customer (:
{ 8:19 AM }
Its May now , and i just realised that i need to start my enginessssss ):
Still no motivations , no encouragements.
However , i still need to do what needs to be done (:
Without test papers and exams ,
i really dont know if im progressing.
But i did tried testing myself ? and i sounded like an idiot.
i bet Alysaeudora Rossanne Ali needs someone to test her Geo ?
So come on , help me Test my Combine Science ley ? ;P
I know she will do her part as a friend (:
A's kan dowa ? Aingggkkkk !
Sick , Cry , Sulk , Mad . Angry , Pissed , Tired , Frustrated , kick ass , Now.
before exams.
Happy , Smile , Laugh , Jump , Party , Sing , sleep , Later.
after exams.
its three bloody damn subjects Nur Azura Binte Muhammad Sani.
Can you bloody hell just do this three damn subjects well,
and thats it , party all you want later ?
Can you act like an olevel student
and not someone who have just retired from 24 yrs of working ?
Its bloody hell MAY right now.
You have a fucking 4 to 5 months left to be prepared.
And i mean PREPARED.
not ermmm 50-50.
its your bloody second time reading/ studying the same old thing ,
well yes ofcorse there are some which is my first time since i did not focus last year ?
Chup chup chup , UP UP !
buck up now, and bloody hell suffer can ?
ask someone to slap your face if you need.
alright , my blog and whoever reads it , will be my witness.
this are not only words typed from me,
but i will be doing as what i say (:
Come on.
START YOUR ENGINESSSSSSS (:
Labels: The land of geeks.
Thursday, May 6, 2010
{ 8:23 AM }
PEOPLE LIKE YOU DESERVE MY MIDDLE FINGER BODOH.
YOU FORGOT THE MEANING OF RESPECT IN YOUR LIFE (:
stop pointing, because youre just one of them.
plain rude bragging bitch.
i believe in , time keeps moving , people keeps changing.
Labels: Fuck you.
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
{ 9:09 AM }
Ok Ok lets update.
First reason is because Dowa wanted me to.
Second is because i just need to tell (:
Alysaeudora Rossane Ali,
is a strong girl not , but strong girl at heart (:
With things that she is facing ,
she can still smile and laugh ,
And the best part is ,
she accompanied me to school.
Saye sukeeeee (:
you cheer up alright babe ?
not at fault , so be happy ((:
Went to English Night Class just now.
and as per normal,
i am not trying to complain , but the lesson sucks.
The teacher is not helping.
She is there , Yes she is.
Talking about her Life , Bankruptsy , Foods she ate before ,
the first time she ever cooked a rice , and how worth it is shopping at johor.
Please tell me which part of it could help me pass my Olevels ?
Can i bloody hell dragged Mr Ratesh from australia ?
I wish -.-
He is the only ENGLISH TEACHER which teach with some sense.
And too bad , my current english teacher have been busy talking ,
from 7.30pm till 9 .15pm ,
I dont even need a pen and a paper.
How hard can life be ? infact , how hard can my situation be ?
Yes, alot told me to actually believe in myself.
before class started i have a full confidence in myself.
When class ended , all my confidence dropped.
I have no motivation to go to school.
and sadly , i hate the fact that Mum thinks i did not go to school when i actually did.
I dont think she gets the idea that my school is AT NIGHT.
and i will be coming home late -.-
The reason i took this route is just to satisfy people like
Mum and Dad.
and to actually make some people out there to SHUT UP.
i will try to kick my ass hard , and just get this done and over with.
After this , please let my future be my future.
Please let my life be my life.
Its very saddening okay ?
to actually face this painful journey ONCE AGAIN.
yes i know, its part of my fault for not doing it well the first time.
But please , dont have the mindset that i am and forever will be a failure.
And and , whats with people this days ?
can learn to actually be a lil bit Humble ?
Like saying in status : Oh im at Rp studying Poly stuff , not Sec stuff.
Fucker.
Like comparing schools , comparing whose child is better ,
comparing whose child have better grades ,
Like come on lah , Congratulations on what you have , so shut up (:
This is what people meant by , After secondary school life ,
Youll know who your true friends are.
Isnt it obvious now,
that who ever turns to be a fucking jerk as soon as they're in poly ,
are not true friends ?
whatever people (:
