Its time.
I should realised that i am lucky to be given the second chance in life.
Im gonna do it ,
no one and nothing should stand in my way now.
i gotta believe in myself.
even if it means standing ALONE.
i dont fucking care already (:
Moving on , its time to make my life a better.
A meaning to it atleast.
after today.
everything will change (:
SAYE SUKEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE !! ^^

Labels: love love.

its just not fair.
the feeling of being so sure that someone would be there,

Labels: taking advantage happens.

And so , my 9th of aug 2010 was spent with 3 pain in the ass kids.
except one wasnt really a kid.
I was treated like An Adult which holds responsibilities in taking care of them.
in WHATEVER AND EVERYTHING they do (:
including buying medicines, buying meals, register bicycles,
make sure everyone was stick together.
Syafiqah said she wanted to meet me and Dowa ,
sadly as per normal , she went missing just like that .
awesome (:
we actually planned to watch the fireworks since we;re there at the beach ,
but thanks to our slow lil poke ( Alin ) who cycled twice slower than she ran ,
we didnt made it on time (:
and at the end of the day , she said this ,
" hmm agaknyer bunge api memang takde lah nari "
-.-
alright , still , i hope the three kids had an awesome fun time (:
that might be the last time for nurul before her PSLE,
and for me and dowa before our Olevels ?
and for alin before her streamings (:
wooots, feeling the heat already.

Best of luck , to you girls (:
to the girl who faints ,
to the girl who never knows the meaning of resting ,
to the girl who just wanna have fun .

Labels: imma sweet (:

I think , imma gonna start moving in to the library next week.
or probably , just stay at home , and mug.
since coming monday is national day , i've got no plans at all ,
so i thought if there is no other plans ,
i shall stick with this plan of running away from everything ,
and focus.
and bulan ramadhan is coming , so i need to replace those times chewing things in my mouth,
with something better to do (:
there will be no class on monday , national day -.-
and i dont think i should go english class on wednesday ,
because its the first night of bulan ramadhan ,
and i want to eat with families at home and go teraweh (:
how nice.
however , will be going for science class on friday , weeeeee ~

so basically , ive concentrated more on chem that i totally neglected Physics.
chetttssssss !
concentrating on maths that i neglected english.
another chetttsssss !

*attension , tak perlu bace ni , pasal ni aku membebel marah diri sendiri , ty (: *
mati sudah sak aku.
skarang dah bloody august kau tau tak.
kimice, kau tak wake up skarang, tak take things seriously,
abe bile lagi ? bile result dah kluar ? bodoh pe ?
kimice. go and die. easier.

Yeah yeah i know, its fucking august.
my fucking oral is on the 26 of august.
and i still havent start reading , nyah.
* smack forehead.
ape nak jadi ngan aku.
okay enough, easy said then done anyways.
whatever.

now about hows life going onnnnnnnn.
awesome in some ways ? sucks in some ways also ?
heeeeeeeeeeee.
when it comes to people around me,
for now, i only need someone who will constantly remind me to study (:
because my family have other heavy things to handle,
and for now, im not really that important, sadly ):
i felt like an outsider.
nevermind, good thing. i dont need naggings for now.
but i need attension /:
Love , Care and Consern can really drive me far away from thinking about how ,
ive been neglected right now at home , really.
Yeap , i feel neglected.
but nahhh , nevermind.
i miss being pampered like a kid , i miss acting like a kid around.
i miss it.
and sometimes, i drop down, looking like a mess,
pretend like everythings alright.
sometimes, i coudnt really manage to hide it,
and i would try to quickly knock my head and start pretending to be fine back again (:
but i guess, if that someone knows me well enough, they'll realised.
sheesh.
i gotta be strong,
here at the end, trying to pretend.

* companion , please come ? ):

Labels: neglected lil child

i love the way you are right now.
i hope its not for temporary.

Labels: kiss on the left and right.