Thursday, September 16, 2010
{ 2:16 PM }
And Hello ? Mind your own business ? Youre seriously not part of my life anymore. Like not at all.
Like oh come on , we dont text , we dont call , we dont chat , youre not my friend in facebook ,
we dont talk at all.
so basically , youre not part of my life anymore.
so you dont really have to give a shit in who im contacting with ,
or why im still contacting ,
or even have to bother yourself to actually THINK or TALK about me.
because youre just gonna commit your own sins.
like seriously.
if its smth good , like you care or anything , alhamdulillah.
but if youre gonna show attitude or just show me that face ,
or MAYBE talk behing my back ? who knows -.-
about whoever im in contact with ?
Go to hell with you and your mouth.
i dont pretty much care , but if youre gonna spread your attitudes and
spread all the disease , im gonna say straight to your face.
Youre no closer than better -.-
its easier, if you just mind your own businees.
think that you dont even know me ,
dont even know who the hell is Nur Azura Binte muhammad sani ,
because i dont need to be in your chapter of book if with you showing me those attitudes of yours,
like youre sucha clean lil child.
buzz off.
leave me in peace , i dont even bother you -.-
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
{ 11:27 AM }
thank you for listening to me (:
youve got your friend who gives you trouble.
and i have a friend who gives me heart ache too (:
they got sooooo close to you , and then they kick you just liddat.
Cantek lah.
heh.
maya , you can always find me when you need a friend (:
Labels: thanks again (:
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
{ 10:12 AM }
wondering why , the sudden change.
Thursday, August 19, 2010
{ 11:36 AM }
Its time.
I should realised that i am lucky to be given the second chance in life.
Im gonna do it ,
no one and nothing should stand in my way now.
i gotta believe in myself.
even if it means standing ALONE.
i dont fucking care already (:
Moving on , its time to make my life a better.
A meaning to it atleast.
after today.
everything will change (:
SAYE SUKEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE !! ^^
Labels: love love.
Friday, August 13, 2010
{ 9:43 AM }
I know, ive been updating my blog without fail (:
Things have been said , but things are not getting better.
Like ive said before,
im so used to your presence, that im scared things would change.
And things are changing.
but ive gotta believe that its gonna be for temporary.
ive got to have some faith in you.
probably in times like this , its meant to show , who truly is there for you.
You know that ill always be.
Just be strong in whatever youre facing.
i know you are , definitely (:
The level of love towards each person around me is never Equal.
You might never know, I love you more than you thought i did.
but its alright, love is to do it sincerely and not really expect the same in return.
The moment i land my lips on your cheek ,
is when i told you , i love you.
and when its every day ,
its everyday i love you (:
seldom wants to everyday needs.
Thursday, August 12, 2010
{ 10:06 AM }
its just not fair.
the feeling of being so sure that someone would be there,
but they just dont.
the feeling of that someone really loves you,
but they never seems like it.
the feeling of like youre living the world yourself.
and now my heart's broken like the bottles on the floor.
Just so down.
the feeling of people using me,
sucks to the corest core.
i dont need that anymore.
really.
Its best if you just be there and care,
or just Never.
i dont need shits, i dont need craps.
Its getting on my nerves already.
and now Im off.
sometimes i wish, all the people around you would walk off,
and youll finally see, that im actually there.
Tsk.
Labels: taking advantage happens.
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
{ 5:56 AM }
And so , my 9th of aug 2010 was spent with 3 pain in the ass kids.
except one wasnt really a kid.
I was treated like An Adult which holds responsibilities in taking care of them.
in WHATEVER AND EVERYTHING they do (:
including buying medicines, buying meals, register bicycles,
make sure everyone was stick together.
Syafiqah said she wanted to meet me and Dowa ,
sadly as per normal , she went missing just like that .
awesome (:
we actually planned to watch the fireworks since we;re there at the beach ,
but thanks to our slow lil poke ( Alin ) who cycled twice slower than she ran ,
we didnt made it on time (:
and at the end of the day , she said this ,
" hmm agaknyer bunge api memang takde lah nari "
-.-
alright , still , i hope the three kids had an awesome fun time (:
that might be the last time for nurul before her PSLE,
and for me and dowa before our Olevels ?
and for alin before her streamings (:
wooots, feeling the heat already.
Best of luck , to you girls (:
to the girl who faints ,
to the girl who never knows the meaning of resting ,
to the girl who just wanna have fun .
Labels: imma sweet (:
Friday, August 6, 2010
{ 9:48 AM }
I think , imma gonna start moving in to the library next week.
or probably , just stay at home , and mug.
since coming monday is national day , i've got no plans at all ,
so i thought if there is no other plans ,
i shall stick with this plan of running away from everything ,
and focus.
and bulan ramadhan is coming , so i need to replace those times chewing things in my mouth,
with something better to do (:
there will be no class on monday , national day -.-
and i dont think i should go english class on wednesday ,
because its the first night of bulan ramadhan ,
and i want to eat with families at home and go teraweh (:
how nice.
however , will be going for science class on friday , weeeeee ~
so basically , ive concentrated more on chem that i totally neglected Physics.
chetttssssss !
concentrating on maths that i neglected english.
another chetttsssss !
*attension , tak perlu bace ni , pasal ni aku membebel marah diri sendiri , ty (: *
mati sudah sak aku.
skarang dah bloody august kau tau tak.
kimice, kau tak wake up skarang, tak take things seriously,
abe bile lagi ? bile result dah kluar ? bodoh pe ?
kimice. go and die. easier.
Yeah yeah i know, its fucking august.
my fucking oral is on the 26 of august.
and i still havent start reading , nyah.
* smack forehead.
ape nak jadi ngan aku.
okay enough, easy said then done anyways.
whatever.
now about hows life going onnnnnnnn.
awesome in some ways ? sucks in some ways also ?
heeeeeeeeeeee.
when it comes to people around me,
for now, i only need someone who will constantly remind me to study (:
because my family have other heavy things to handle,
and for now, im not really that important, sadly ):
i felt like an outsider.
nevermind, good thing. i dont need naggings for now.
but i need attension /:
Love , Care and Consern can really drive me far away from thinking about how ,
ive been neglected right now at home , really.
Yeap , i feel neglected.
but nahhh , nevermind.
i miss being pampered like a kid , i miss acting like a kid around.
i miss it.
and sometimes, i drop down, looking like a mess,
pretend like everythings alright.
sometimes, i coudnt really manage to hide it,
and i would try to quickly knock my head and start pretending to be fine back again (:
but i guess, if that someone knows me well enough, they'll realised.
sheesh.
i gotta be strong,
here at the end, trying to pretend.
* companion , please come ? ):
Labels: neglected lil child
Thursday, August 5, 2010
{ 9:23 AM }
i love the way you are right now.
i hope its not for temporary.
i hope youre not gonna make a fool outta me,
because you know i am here for you ,
just whenever.
i can be here and there, just about anytime for you,
but i hope youre not gonna take advantage of
the fact that i love being around you.
i can spend my days coming over, just to meet you,
even when my moods like shit, tired like shit,
everything can be back to fine,
the moment you pampered me like a kidd,
and you yourself acting like a kid.
whenever you just give me that smile,
you make everything worth while (:
but again , im scared.
scared that somedays, things would change.
scared that ill get carried away, and being used to you treating me
like im someone important in your life.
someone youre scared to lose , i hope.
just so scared.
Labels: kiss on the left and right.
Friday, July 16, 2010
{ 11:12 AM }
O's is SERIOUS SHIT around the corner, coming to the centre i guess.
Ok Fish , im crapping.
IM DAMN SCAREDDDDDDDD, TY (:
if you asked me , if im ready ,
ill say absolutely, NOT.
however, i am trying my best , and not wanting to face another same situation,
like how i did on 2009 ,
except this year will be infront of the computer ,
and not infront of a teacher, NYAH.
English , is NEUTRAL.
Maths , is TERRIBLE.
chem and physics is still on schedules.
GODDDDDDD.
i have alot alot alot alot alot to cover for maths and science.
and i have 2 freaking months left !!
i swear to GOD, i dont wanna fail once again this year.
I SWEARRRRRR.
people say, when you fail once, youll learn from your failures,
and do well the next time,
i aint see any positives yet, sadly.
once again, ive got to curse those private classes.
the moment i step in to class,
: oh have you paid $5 for the papers i printed ? -.-
FUCK.
dont you have any other thing going on your mind instead of collecting
money from people who needs help ? CB.
my schedules are laid out , and now all i need to do is CHIONGGGG AHHHH.
come on, i can do it.
not one of my family member can be there to remind me for now,
and i dont know until when,
since its like that, so ill have to deal with this on my own.
COME ON MANNNNNN (:
Labels: i need all the strength.
I know, ive been updating my blog without fail (:
its just not fair.
i love the way you are right now.
